Happy Hanukkah with Love & Light from Morocco

Happy Hanukkah with Love & Light from Morocco

Two nights ago I couldn’t sleep. Sleeplessness is a rarity for me. Too much coffee and sugar consumed on my first day in Essaouira? Solstice? Excitement? While tossing and turning I got up and decided to do some research about the Jews of Essaouira. Once a large vibrant community of merchants and silversmiths, now nearly vanished. When I finally gave up on trying to sleep, I mapped out my route and headed for the Mellah neighborhood and the Haïm Pinto Synagogue. 

Healing Jew with Wounded Knee

Healing Jew with Wounded Knee

Walking slowly like a robot. That’s how I am. A friend who is not on Facebook contacted me today because she hadn’t seen an update on my blog for a month. I was amazed that anyone noticed. I’ll start with a health update. It’s been 11 weeks since I tore my right meniscus. I decided about 10 weeks ago to not have surgery. I will post some articles below which support my decision. I’ve been actively doing physical therapy, and pursuing alternatives. My quads just starting working about a week ago. 

April Fools Seeking

April Fools Seeking

In November of 2011 I attended my first 10-day silent meditation retreat at Spirit Rock. Waiting around in the dining hall for the others to check in, having a few last moments of random conversation. Advice was flowing from other more experienced meditators, things like, “you won’t make it to every session,” and “remember, there’s no meditation police.”

Time Travel With Me

Time Travel With Me

Writing to write. Write write write. Type type type. Epiphanies arrive and float by. Pens and keyboards seem far away. Trying to move through time and heal along the way. Trying not to let the situation get me too depressed. Feeling myself moving back to that place where I was before I started dancing. Fear. Fear of getting hurt. Fear that my body won’t support me. Fear that I will fall down. Fear that some part of me will break. 

Finally, A Pain Eating Serpent

Finally, A Pain Eating Serpent

When I experience something powerful and potent, I want to talk about it. I want to put light on it. I want others to share in the discovery. I had a powerful experience a few months ago which connected me to a sense of trust and belief in nature. That’s all I can say about it now. A miracle shared is a miracle halved. At least that’s what I heard. 

Scar Tissue

Scar Tissue

The healer I’m working with is educating me about the importance of big open questions, left open so as not to limit the answers. I like that. Power in repeating the questions, and destroying any obstacles to a life full of ease, joy, and glory. She didn't know it, but during our session I was wearing a Ganesh under my many layers.

Shifting Inner Circle

Shifting Inner Circle

My friendships are like a constantly shifting inner circle. Picture a spirograph moving with different colored pen on ink configurations. Each point of connection representing moments that are at times touching, at times on opposite sides. Intersecting with others at the same time. And always maintaining connection, even when there are vast spaces in between. I am so grateful for my friends.